Julie and I started this blog hoping to chronicle our journey either back to the farm or onto some other adventure. We hope those days will come and that we’ll have many moments of happiness and joy. And while we will use this blog for when those things happen, I’m afraid that the first journey that needs to be taken is a journey toward mental wellness for me.
I’m not sure how “exciting” of a journey that will be for any of you to follow. I’m not even sure how much of that we’re going to be willing to share. Mental health issues are very sensitive, and there is almost always a very negative stigma associated with them. I have many raw emotions and will have lots of shame and embarrassment to overcome. Some of that you won’t hear about.
I know for a fact that there are things about my trauma that I won’t share. But there are others things that I think I wouldn’t mind, like even admitting that I have PTSD, or that I’m getting mental health treatment from the VA. Some things I think will be helpful to talk about and share because it will help me to learn to stop the pattern of avoidance and isolation. I think I’ll need to share them in order to get better.
I also think that all of us know more people with mental health issues than we realize, and that those people are nervous to let others know. I think that the more people learn about MH issues the more they can act with compassion toward those they know and love… maybe I’ll be able to share something that will help you understand the depression/loneliness/anxiety that your friend or family member is feeling. Or perhaps by sharing it will give somebody else the resolve to seek help for their issues too. Maybe some other veteran will find help instead of turning into a “22 a day” statistic (22 veterans a day commit suicide). So I’ll share and hope for those results, as well as to show my kids that their father is doing his best to get better.
So if you are interested in that, then keep following along as we, the Jensen family, continue our journey through life, where ever that might take us. Our first step will be to attempt to mend my broken vessel.